What Tupac Shakur Meant to DuB

Being the Fro’s only West Coast representer, I knew it was only right that I tackle the importance that Tupac, his music, his poetry, and his life meant for me. I won’t pretend that I am as knowledgeable as some a P-Body, or a P From the D on the matter. That is not what this column is about. This is about the way this one man that I never met helped shape my childhood and may be the reason I am even on the Fro today.

In September of 1996 I remember my Mom picking me up from the local Boys and Girls Club. She worked at the airport and was scared to death to take the highway so she was normally running late. This time she was extremely late. It was fight night, Mike Tyson was scheduled to knock somebody out that night so the strip was extremely packed. She got to me around 5pm and we went out to eat and hung out for a few hours. By the time we got home the local news as well as the National News reported that Pac had been shot down. I remember the first report I saw said he was murdered, but was later corrected to shot. I was actually a fan of Will Smith, and had just discovered NaS, Snoop, and Jay-Z so I really didn’t know who Pac was. I asked my mom and all she said was “A Great Man”. That has always stayed with me. She didn’t say a rapper, a thug, or anything the media had tried to betray him as, but she said a great man.

The coming days were weird in my city. Normally Las Vegas doesn’t sleep, but it was as quiet as you will ever see it. The news had it reported that people were outside of the hospital to show their support, but it was bigger that that. People were going about their day and finding ways to try and uplift the Hip-Hop legend. People would say a prayer for him at dinner or just voice their support for him.I remember the day that it was announced he had passed away. My Mom got a phone call from her best friend crying. It was like he was apart of the family and she had to deliver the bad news. Needless to say that not only the Hip Hop world, but the world in its entirety were changed forever.

After Pac passed I actually began to do some research on him. It was pretty easy because BET and MTV were playing allot of his videos and talking about his career, plus the radio had nothing but 2Pac songs on. I remember the pride that Pac talked about when trying to express the power that Hip-Hop had. I remember 2Pac attempting to uncover the wrong doings and inequalities in the world through Hip-Hop. I also remember the young man who wanted to express his political views with the world. That political side of 2Pac inspired me to write a report on him for my 6th grade final assignment. I went to a private Christian School, and was the only black kid in my class. I remember turning in the paper with so much pride, and getting it back from the teacher as he gave me a look of disappointment. On the paper it said, “A rapper is not someone you should look up to or admire, Tupac backwards spells Caput for a reason”. I was a straight A student who never got anything lower than a B for any individual assignment. I was taken back when I saw he had failed me. It was then I decided that maybe my calling was to help destroy the negative image of Hip-Hop.

In High School, I remember rapping in cyphers, and battling friends all the time. As we got older we use to battle for money, and at times my homies would even pay me to ghostwrite. Although at this time Pac was no longer my favorite rapper his influence in my bars was evident. I took a creative writing class, thinking it would help my rhymes get to the next level, and instead of writing music, I began to write about it. I was able to explain Pac and his message along with other rappers. My senior year marked the 10th anniversary of the legend. I wrote a paper on him and my teacher advised me to stay with writing, especially about Hip-Hop. My life did sort of go in another direction. I enlisted into the Army and lived my life, but when I came to the Fro and saw the love other writers shared for the art I couldn’t help but ask for an opportunity to join the fam. King Jerm, and everyone welcomed me with open arms and I hope it is because they can see in me what I see in them.

Is Tupac the greatest rapper in my opinion? No, he is not the best lyricist, nor was his flow the most innovative. What Tupac was though was a leader. He led this new generation of rappers to think about the opportunities to uplift communities as well as themselves. Tupac Shakur is the first person that was able to have me fall in love with Hip-Hop. For that I will always respect him.

  1. @Squeezy
    He actually did say September in the article.

    This is pretty interesting read from Dub. I didn’t know you was from the West Coast either and I’m surprised Pac isn’t your favorite rapper especially with the way he rep the west. I still remember the day when Pac died myself.. I was watching BET or MTV I think when they news came on and thats when I found out my 15 year old cousin was brutally murdered by some punks when my cousins called the crib (she was at the wrong place at the wrong time). So that was a really fucked up day for me period that I will never ever forget. 96 was a crazy crazy year with all the deaths of people I knew back then. Overall I’m glad somebody else see the good Pac brought into the game and recognize dude was a leader in his time. If he would have lived I think he would have been bigger or did more movies possibly direct them more and write scripts but who knows since he didn’t make it to 97.

    I do admit Pac isn’t the most lyrical dude out there but the way he write his rhymes and delivered them was different. Before Pac nobody wasn’t rapping like him especially with the emotion and the image he had such as the tats, bandanas, and nose ring. He was the first to take his shirt off during performances, now everybody doing that shit. You can’t help but to respect the man. I still bump his old albums as if it just came out the store, I do listen to new stuff too but Pac just the shiznit. He caught my attention way back in the day before he got on Death Row. I remember he was on a episode of A Different World and In Living Color. Of course I did like Scarface, UGK, 8ball & MJG, Nas, Brand Nubian, and so forth but Pac was that dude that really grabbed my attention.

    I have a lot of documentaries I bought about Pac. Dude was really a good guy that gave back and sometimes did free performances. They said he use to write this little girl letters at the hospital alot since she was injured from getting bit by a dog, and he wrote her until he died. Nobody knew about this until the Before I Wake DVD came out in 02 which I bought that day it came out. He was very intelligent.

    East Coast West Coast beef did not kill Pac & Biggie. If it did Pac would have got murdered in New York after the MTV awards, but both guys got murdered on the West, and in the same type of fashion. It was something deeper than rap…. Some FBI/Government type of shit was in the mix. You got to remember Pac shot two cops before and got off the charges. On that 2Pac “Assassination” DVD it really goes into depth on new stuff surrounding Pac death, it make you really think…. Cops didn’t question the security guards, security guards was ordered by David Mack to not bring weapons and all type of shit. Its craziness. Also they said Pac and Suge got into a big argument as well before his death.

    Anyways good shit man. RIP Pac we will never forget you. We will always feel that void.

  2. Did anyone else get that VIBE book about 2pac? I remember in middle school I read the hell out of that book and when it got torn up, it was a sad day indeed. and Dub does make a good point, Pac wasn’t the most technically sound rapper of all-time but it was the emotion he could convey with his voice that really hooked people, plus he was so diverse yet hypocritical. Who else could make songs like Dear Mama or Keep Your Head up, then come back at you with Wonda Why They Call U Bitch & Hit ‘Em Up?

    1. Yeah I remember that VIBE magazine man, I wish they still had it in stores or some way I can order it…. They just don’t make magazines good like they use to in hip hop. Pac is my favorite of all time. I’m sorry but dude work speak for itself and it don’t even sound rushed. The emotions in his music caught me and I been hooked ever since then. He was very diverse in the music he listen to, he didn’t just listen to hip hop and R&B. Wonda Why They Call U Bitch had a meaning behind it, its not like he made that song just to make it offensive. He had Baby Don’t Cry, High Speed, Pain, Part Time Motha, and so forth where he was spitting. There is no other rapper/emcee that can grab me the way Pac did in his music. Dude music is timeless. Even when they put his 96 vocals over 2011 beats he still ride it out as if he is alive right now.

  3. great article DuB, but one correction: “Being the Fro’s only West Coast representer”
    I’m pretty sure Arkitekt is from Cali, cause all the concerts he reviews are from Cali. I could be wrong tho.

    maybe y’all can hang and go to the next Smoke Out together =)

    1. Man you’re from the West Coast and Pac isn’t the GOAT for you? Smh Verb. I thought we was better than that man. [Walk away from the computer]

      You’re still my homie though.

      1. no no, I was sayin’ I thought Ark was from Cali. I’m Houston born and Texas and Florida raised. I’ve never even been to the West coast yet. But I do intend to migrate to CA eventually in my life (for the killer weather and the killer legal good). I actually intend to live in Slab City for a year. google it if yeen’know.

        Pac was on his way to be a GOAT eventually, but that was stolen from him. Thats how I see it *shrug*

        1. I was about to say man. Most of us writers are from the south well from what I see….

          I have relatives out in Houston Texas and Florida as well I need to go out to visit them one day soon.

          With that being said I know you have to be a UGK fan then. UGK is definitely one of the best and very underrated if you ask me. Long live the Pimp!

          Man Pac was already one of the GOATs. He just got taken away too soon before he really was able to amp it up even more. He would have took Jay-Z out the game which he was working on already. Long Live Pac.

          Dude was on a episode of Saturday Night Live, In Living Color, A Different World, and so forth. He was appealing to the masses but at that same he was reaching towards us the youth back then. He was the hip hop rock star

          1. man, you know I’m a UGK fan. that whole “6 Degrees of Bun-B” joint was my idea. I’m still sayin’ Bun for President. I might actually vote for the first time just to write him in, lol

            as far as Pac, I see what you’re sayin’. he was definitely in the running for possible GOAT. but I think part of GOAT is longevity. I mean he only recorded from what 91 to 96? thats 5/6 years. I think a GOAT has to make consistently great music for at least 10 years or more. sometimes death I think can cloud peoples perception of their music and its always seen as great. I mean if Kurt Cobain, Biggie and Hendrix were still alive, would they be making great music still? probably not. most great artists fall off eventually. just listen to Paul McCartney’s music now. that shit is horrible.

            But I’m never sayin’ Pac wasnt amazing for his time. I’ll agree that he was the first real Hip-Hop rock star. and if he was still alive today makin’ amazing music, then I’d probably be right there with ya callin’ him the GOAT. thats what i meant when I said it was stolen from him.

    2. It’s funny you mention that Verbose b/c I’m from Vegas too.

      Good write up DuB. I was 10 yo and my favorite rapper was Pac at the time. I remember watching MTV and Kurt Loder came on with breaking news that Pac was shot. I felt the same way Biggie did, that Pac would get through it b/c he always has. Then he died, and I shedded tears like I knew the man. I didn’t have much role models at the time, but I felt that I could relate and see where Pac was coming from. It’s sad that some people will never truly understand Pac or hip hop in general for that matter.

      1. oh I thought you was from CA. arent a bunch of the concerts you’ve reviewed been in CA?
        you still in Vegas? I’m dyin’ to go there. let me crash at your pad and we’ll go remake The Hangover =)

        and to put in my 2 cents in on the subject, I didnt cry when Pac died, but I cried like a bitch when Kurt killed himself. for some reason the suicide just hit me hard.

        1. Kurt Loder was awesome on MTV man, it seem like back then he was always the one to break the bad news to the public.

          I feel Ark though. Pac was and still is my favorite rapper. That shit hit me hard back then since my cousin was murdered that same day and year. It was a double whammy for your boy and that is a day I’ll never forget.

          @Verb – Yeah Kurt situation was fucked up. I just don’t see how a person would do that to themselves even though I have felt like that before in the past myself but I would never act. When my brother did that shit to himself in 08 and I was more angry than sad at him. Suicide is very personal for me. I had another partner of mines who blew his head off in 06. I always say if people have problems they need to talk to people about it or get help.

          1. your cousin was murdered the same day as Pac? wow. I’m sorry man. I can see why Pac’s music would become so important to you, even if it wasn’t before that day.

            and I’m sorry to hear that youve lost 2 family members to suicide. its a really sad thing. my homie’s brother hung himself recently. thats as close as I’ve gotten to suicide. I hope I never get any closer. I used to really be depressed as a kid and got really dark for awhile. tried to kill myself with a full bottle of sleeping pills. I was amazed and secretly relieved I woke up the next day. I was sick for a week.

            I think most people kill themselves because they think its the beginning of something else, something hopefully better (an afterlife or reincarnation of some sort). once I came to the realization that the fact is, THIS is probably all there is, I lost all desire to kill myself, no matter how bad my depression gets (cause I’m bi-polar, steep lows and manic highs). once you realize this is all there is, even the worst dark days seem better than nothing at all. I often write “enjoy even this” on my arm (and I’m getting it tattoed soon) to remind myself to enjoy everything, even the bad stuff, because even pain is better than ceasing to exist.

            I still plan on ending my life one day. but it wont be until my body and memories start to go. the only thing scarier than not existing, to me, is eventually losing my memories. because if you think about it, our brain is a computer and all we are is accumulation of memories. once those start to go, whats the point y’know? if forget your family and friends, forget the knowledge you’ve accumulated, forget all the good times (and bad ones), lose the ability to talk by losing the memory of language. all we are is just an accumulation of memories. once i get to that point, I’m going to visit Niagara Falls and end it there (or maybe the Golden Gate Bridge) . I couldn’t choose how i came into this world, but I will choose how i leave. and it wont be sad thing, it’ll be a celebration. much different than sad people in their prime ending it.

            but anyway, sorry for the essay. its just a subject i think about alot. life, death, the meaning of it all, if there is one. all that stuff. i’m an existential motherfucker. =)

            apologies to DuB for getting so far off topic. something about your articles homie that get my fingers working (like that one Em article that had me and SW goin crazy on, lol)

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